Whole - Broken - Whole

We come into this world whole
If we do not have the proper protection
the evils of the world can reach us
and break us
sometimes fast
sometimes slow
Do you remember the first time you felt pain?
The first time your innocence was darkened?
Do you remember your innocence?
Innocence. . . . . .
Some enter this world already in a broken state
through a cloudy tunnel
into a realm of chaos
If we could only climb back in
to where we came from
the coldness seems too much for our fragile selves to bare
though we thought we could
So we do
Because we can
Because we are here to learn again
To learn anew

I knew the tender Spirit of God as a child, we would play together when no one was looking. How sweet life was then. But when I began to feel pain in my life, I let His hand go.
And went on my own.
On my own, all alone, searching for what I'd just let go of
"Oh hurt child of mine, I will wait for your return. Though you have let me go, I will never let go of you. I will be ten steps ahead of you, and ten steps behind you, and ten steps above you, and ten steps below you. Always, always, with you."
Finally, the day came. My clothes torn, my body unbathed, bruised and scarred. Who is this person I have become?
"I give up! I give up this way of my own! I give up all that I know! I know nothing now that I have sunk so low!"
And like the passing of a storm, the dark clouds move fast away and the light and warmth of the sun come shinning down on me...
"My love...My LOVE...My LOVE!!! YOUR LOVE!!! YOUR LOVE *IS* MY LOVE!!! AND I AM YOUR LOVE!!! Ohhhh I remember....I remember....
Now I remember...
I remember!!!
and now..
I will never---
never---
forget."

Remembrance

June 10, 2012
i see. 
things in a holy way. i have been given a vision that goes beyond the universes. an understanding beyond the universes. everyday i am understanding more. and more of what i am understanding. I am a Holy One. I have come here in this time for All of Us. I now understand this. I now must be who I am. in every. way. my strength must always be on high. and when it is not i must turn it back up quickly. for any time not spent in my most gloriousness, is time that i am not being true to my spirit. true to my father. my true father. our grandfather. 

they are my true love. the love above all loves. all other love flows through the divine love making it part of it. but not the source.

my life is not mine. hosanna. the flesh. no. now i am sophia. the divine. i cannot be weak in the flesh. unless it is blessed. unless it is blessed.

this is who I am. 

i share this with you as a reminder to myself and perhaps a reminder to you. connections can be tricky. we do not always make of them for what they truly are. because we rush. we rush as if there is not enough time. forgetting that there is as much time as there needs to be. all of the time. 

we don't take our time. we need to take our time. always. no rushing. rushing is the time keeping of man. not the universe. wisdom is shadowed by rushing. moving faster than we are really moving. going against the true hands of time. that is what we do. in one way or another. one may be slow in movement but speedy in thought. slow in thought, speedy in action. everything must be at a leveled pace. always. to be fully here. fully present. fully listening. fully understanding. i have learned this way of living and i have been blessed immensely. this is my life commitment. 

now you know the biggest piece of me

let us get to know each other by the hands of divine time

we know we know each other

now let us get to know why we are here

this time

for each other

with each other

in gentle divine time

we have work to do

together

let's not let the flesh deter us from our paths

we are strong

your sister your mother your daughter your lover,

sophia

I am Believer. A believer in ONE GOD. The GOD of all the Heaven and of All the Earths. I bleieve in His Son Jesus Christ. The living manifestation of God the Father, sent from the Heavens, to make us whole again.
My faith has been tested in these mountains - - -
I fell weak the moment my eyes left the gaze of my loving Father
As close as we were, I turned my gaze
As much as I was secure in His love, I turned my full gaze-away
My Lord, how could I forsake you when you have shown me such great things, showered me many blessings, filled the deepest despairs of my soul ?
How many times have you been forsaken, Lord Father ?
You are the Lord of Lords, yet you are still pained each time one of your children go astray
for you are here, to keep us in love, and away from pain
yet we look away..
all of Your love, given to us
and we can still look away
I know I have already been forgiven, yet I feel my punishment in the distance between us
For I was knowing you so closely
You were becoming my everything
You were my everything
And although my human weaknesses led me astray,
You are still here
gazing at me so lovingly
so deeply desiring me to love you, and only you, once again
You are a loving God, yet I feel your jealousy over my heart
I am yours again, Holy Lord, I am yours again.
I pray to be kept closely under your arm, against your chest, where I belong
Living with you, loving you, protected from all fallacies, for eternity.
My life is yours. Allow me to serve you in all that I do, with all that I say, in all that I am.

Father, you are my love. My only love.

Christ has died, Christ has risen, Christ has never left.


The Believer  

no one ever has time 
time is not to be had
so without time...                          
                            we simply are                              

expansion of your spirit will break you out of your imaginary limitations
expand your spirit by surrendering all that you think you know, and all that you think you are
to the Creator of your life, this life, all life
becoming small, weak and lifeless as you are - in the presence of the Almighty, without acknowledgement and worship of His Holy Majesty. 
He is the ruler of all. 
Lay yourself back.. allow your tired, heavy self to fall into the arms of the Supreme love
allow your face to be lovingly caressed by the one who loves you most
your eyes slowly close
your body eases out of strain and relaxes..
you feel so safe.. so secure..
in the arms of Your Holy Father..
All the love, your heart ached for
right here
for you
all for you..

Bless you, beautiful children of the Lord

THRIVE, the film

so hard to speak of the new, to the old
unless the old have grown into the new
most of the old are in the now very old
and still, we love them
we love them and we respect them
they are a part of us, as we are a part of them
as we are all part of this existence 
they are from another time, with another energy
let them be 
always let everyone be
allow yourself to be
love
patience, loving patience to all of us, for we are all on different levels of our different journeys of the same world
our existence, shaping our existence, in the now, to the future - - -

be your love

when you can feel, you feel all that lives

you can feel the sadness of the lonely horse who day after day walks his lonesome confined walk, always waiting for food, always waiting for a friend

you can hear the greediness of the magpie 

you can feel the emptiness of the woman who does not know how to love her children

you can feel the desperation of the child who kills

you can feel the nightmares of the lost

you can see the darkness of the governments

you can see the energies of the world in colors

many colors, many energies

many evils, many blessings

many ways, one Truth.

One truth, many ways

Seek, the way to the truth and you will be shown the only way.